My Angels

Today is Pregnancy and Infant loss Awareness day.  Today I should have a 10 month old who is just developing his/her personality...or a 3 month old.  I usually try not to dwell on the what if's.  When my due date approaches, I don't sit and memorialize that day.  To me, its just another day.  Another day that I"m still battling this circumstance.  I know that my 2 angels will be with me again.  Instead of dwelling of the have nots...I spend most of my time thinking about what kind of mother I will be.  I think about the things I will do with my kids, the places we will travel.  It keeps me hopeful on a journey that can take away your total being.  So on this day, I don't cry for my angels, I look forward to when I will finally meet them.